Working Harder to be a Better You

I am already tired of going to class and we are only in week two. I think there are fourteen weeks, I need to think of it that way so that it doesn’t seem like there is so much time left. I don’t mind the work but I have been in classrooms all my life and I am so over it! I would rather have an aprenticeship.

Work is still good. I am a little afraid that I will not get things together for adoption day in November but I have high hopes of it being a great experience and showing off my leadership skills. Nothing is due right now it is all due in October and it makes me feel like I am procrastinating instead of getting things done in an orderly fashion.

Worked on the Children’s Court library today, that was stressful. I hate when I get a project that someone has only worked half-assed on. All of your mistakes shouldn’t be passedn on to me. I think it might have been better if I had just thrown away what she gave me and started from scratch. At least it wouldn’t be shit and I know, in the end, it would have been less work. People who can’t do their jobs make me want to scream.

I wonder when we will be moving to our new offices and I wonder if I will get an office again or just a cubicle this time. I like my door and my privacy, I would lie to be able to keep it.

Time to get cleaned up and prepared to go to class and then out for a drink before home, rinse, repeat. I can’t wait for a weekend of fun even if I have to spend it with my parents instead of just Josh!

Getting My Life on Track

I love where my life is going right now.  Work in the Children’s Court is challenging but with plenty of quiet time.  It is nice to have time to study and to not be stressed out everyday when I walk into the office.  I am hoping that I can learn more as time goes on.  I know that there is plenty of opportunity for me to move within the court system and make a place for myself there for the next three years.

I have high hopes that Josh and I will be able to move when I am done with law school.  I just want to move somewhere that is more mild weather wise and also somewhere that has a different culture.  Pittsburgh isn’t terrible but I don’t think that it is the town for me.  It is nice to know that I have a place where I can continue my career if I do stay here though.

The second year of law school is progressing nicely.  Of course we have only had one week of class but already I feel that I will have more ability to stay on top of my work and not become so bogged down every day of my life.  Hopefully this week I will be able to work ahead even further so that when mom and dad come I can relax and have a nice time instead of just stressing about how much work I will be able to get done on Monday after they leave.

I am rather looking forward to having four days off for the G-20 Summit.  I am not looking forward to the crazy that may occur because of the event.  And I flat out refuse to go to any of the make up Saturday classes.  None of the teachers care and I see no reason to go through the stress of getting there and back on the bus.  The weekend schedule is so stressful.

I want so badly to succeed and be the person everyone thinks I can be.  I am terrified of dissapointing them.  Everyone seems so sure that I will make it through school and get a job and be amazing.  I know that is what I want but what if I don’t get there?  What if I can’t make it through school or the bar exam is too much for me?  I am afraid that when it is all over there won’t be a position for me where I want to be or that there won’t be one at all.  What if I am wasting all this time and money and it is all for naught?  I want to be everything that everyone thinks I can be.

I am going to go have an anxiety attack now…

Productive but Bored

Starting week two of my new job and so far I am ahead of the game. There are things I have to do but I don’t have the program or password to do them. This means I will be reading about Real Property today.

I don’t really want any ECAs to come through since it means that some children are in danger but it would be nice to have something to do. Hopefully they will have my passwords soon and add the programs to my computer.

I really enjoy the people that I work with and am having an easy time learning my job. I hope this continues and I can stay ahead and be a super-star like I am accustomed to. I am such a suck up.

I really want to start my career. I hope this is a good start.

Finally Some Good News

I finally heard back about the county job, and I got it! I am so excited to start something new and to, hopefully, not hate my job every day. I have high hopes since the position is brand new and I will be able to make it my own instead of trying to fill someone else’s shoes. This is a huge opportunity for me and I hope that I live up to the expectations.

The honeymoon was wonderful. I loved having a whole week off with Josh to enjoy talking, reading, and roaming around new places. It reminds me of how much I like to travel. Josh and I should take more short trips to random towns because there are some cool things going on in these towns.

This weekend we get to set up a new bank account with my new name and enjoy Pittsburgh fireworks. Pittsburgh is obsessed with fireworks and I think that the show will be quite enjoyable. Plus, we will get to spend time with Greg on his roof and that is always fun.

If I can get some Chipotle and visit Barnes before leaving Ohio my wedding and visit home will be complete! It really is the simple things in life and I am very lucky to have so many of these things in my daily life.

The Day Comes Closer

Only four more days until our wedding. It is one of the most exciting days of my life! I love that we are doing something unique and that my dress can’t be compared to anyone elses. The whole idea that I will get to be with Josh for the rest of my life and no one can take him away is incredible and wonderful.

I wish that the news in the job market was as good as my personal life. It is so frustrating to still have heard nothing from the county about the clerk position. Hopefully I hear something before Thursday or they are going to have to wait on me. It would be so nice to come back from vacation to a new job and begin to get my shit back together.

It makes the wreck I was in even more annoying because before that wreck I didn’t have debt. If I wouldn’t have had the wreck I could have kept two jobs and been able to help Josh get out of debt. By the time we moved we would have been in an amazing position instead of a crappy one.

I really hope something happens with Lois and the disciplinary board. That lady needs to be removed from the law field for the protection of all the desperate souls in Pennsylvania.

I have high hopes for the future but currently my mood is kind of depressing when I think about it. O can’t wait for things to change forthe better.

Do You Think Super Heros Should Have to Register Their Powers?

Well, the second interview went rather well I think. My only concern is that since I am a law student and don’t know that I want to stay in family law they won’t pick me. They should though, I am a great candidate for the position. I would love to spend the next three years, at least, forming the position into something incredible that can make a true difference to children in the courts. It is the perfect position to teach me the importance of detail and how the writings should be completed.

Josh is currently reading some of the Civil War graphic novels. I am not a big fan of the heros with years and years of back story, there is just too much I don’t know for me to just read and enjoy the comics. However, I love discussing ideas that stem from these comics.

In the Civil War storyline the question is do you require mutants and heros to register themselves and such powers as they have?

I have decided that I don’t think they should have to register unless they are going to use those powers in public. I think that even if they are using the powers in a casual manner in public they should be required to register.

However, I don’t think the registry should be one that includes the persons mundane identity. I suggested using something like the tagging devices that so many animals now have. Asstutely Josh pointed out that this would give the government a way to find out the mundane identities of these people. If the government doesn’t already have a list somewhere because they follow people and spy on them I would be shocked. At least a list created in secret may have fewer people who can view it and more protections around it. A list is inevitable but I don’t like it and I don’t want to encourage it.

There was so much more to our discussion. It makes me want to start carrying around a tape recorder so that I can transcribe them later.

More randomness to come I am sure.

A Change is Coming

Tomorrow I finally go for my second interview with the county. I really hope it goes well. Even though I don’t think I want to get into family law I know that working in that area is highly technical and will teach me not only how to work with the county but will teach me how to handle high stress situations.

I am afraid that the other canidates will be more qualified than me, especially because of the economy. I still have high hopes!

Second Interview

I am going to go carzy before Thursday. Then I will probably go crazy after Thursday until I know if I hot the job. If only it could be as easy as getting hired at Barnes or the Glanby Firm. That would be pretty amazing!

Monday I get to go and try and win a car. It is a fun prospect even if it is very unlikely to happen. It would be great to get a new used car and to pay off half our debt. Then, with a new job I can get it done! It would be nice to have that stress off our backs.

Next weekend is the backelorette party and bridal shower. I am getting so excited for the wedding! If I can loose 10 lbs I would feel even better. I don’t think that is too much to ask in a month.

After the wedding and before school starts I want to loose another 15. After that I will try to be more confident and hate my body less.

How I miss high school and my first years of undergrad when I didn’t even have to think about my weight. Oh the wonders of dancing every weekend!

I am excited that I am being productive this summer. I hope I made it through to the next year of law school, I think it will be a much less stressful year. Hopefully, I will be better prepared and not as stressed about work and money. I have some very serious goals for myself.

I want it all!

Still Crossing

So I had a couple of calls about people interested but they have not called back. I am a little flamuxed. I have never had this kind of problem finding a job.

Meanwhile, back at the farm, we are getting some paychecks in. However, mine are all for 12.50 instead of 15 and that is rediculous. There is no reason for my pay to be lowered and I hate that she thinks she can just do it and I have to put up with it. Worse, right now I do have to put up with it because I can’t find a new job. Seriously, what am I doing wrong?

I am stressed out here and want out. I want to find a firm that I can really become a part of and not just float around hoping something better comes along.

At least finals will be over in a week and then I can read for fun and knit again!

A New Week, the Same Crap

Back from a very busy weekend at home. Planning a wedding from hundreds of miles away is exhausting. For weeks I will feel like I have things together and then I go home and I realize nothing is done.

Coming back to work was hard. It is tempting to stay home and get fired because at least that way we have some monies coming in. It is so frustrating and I know Josh is freaking out about the whole credit thing.

Mostly I hate that I am working so hard but it isn’t getting me anywhere. It makes me wonder if all of this is worth it. Sometimes living your dream feels like an impossible goal.